My silence, my world
All I said was that I missed working with a class of children, sweating out under the hot sun amidst their bantering, excitement, carefree voices.
I told 4 persons that.
1 told me there was nothing to be missed cos she definitely didn't miss it, since she's still doing exactly that.
1 told me that deep down, we always long for something and yet dread it too.
1 told me I was mad and should go knock myself out.
1 told me nothing with the non-existent reply.
I just wanted to have the right to miss something. Miss a choice I gave up, or didn't make, or couldn't make.
Do not have any more expectations of me. I can't live up to them, don't want to live up to them anymore. I share none and everything with myself. Because sharing with other people always make me feel more misunderstood.
I hate being misunderstood.
I told 4 persons that.
1 told me there was nothing to be missed cos she definitely didn't miss it, since she's still doing exactly that.
1 told me that deep down, we always long for something and yet dread it too.
1 told me I was mad and should go knock myself out.
1 told me nothing with the non-existent reply.
I just wanted to have the right to miss something. Miss a choice I gave up, or didn't make, or couldn't make.
Do not have any more expectations of me. I can't live up to them, don't want to live up to them anymore. I share none and everything with myself. Because sharing with other people always make me feel more misunderstood.
I hate being misunderstood.