Thinking of myself
How can I be only thinking of myself when I walk down the aisles of the supermarket and the biscuit and titbits store, often in a dilemma of whether to help replenish your snack, and which different variety or brands to buy if I do.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I make space on my desk for a Bible and when attending mass is taking up permanent residence in my weekend schedule.
How can I be only thinking of myself when, after thinking and planning, I suggested to resume our joint-savings to minimise undue money-related stress if we even want or plan to take the next step.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I take up employment and compromise on flexibility, so that the income stability would contribute more consistently to saving up for us.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I need to find out beforehand where my family is going to have breakfast and estimate if that might pose delays to your schedule, before deciding if we would join them.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I consider carefully if it might be indeed convenient for you to join in gatherings with my extended family, even before conveying the invitation to you.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I read reviews after reviews of the possible dining places for the people you also hold dear, just so it's almost as good as anyone could expect.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I always try to hold my negative words and not take the easy way out, even when I feel so very misunderstood and hopeless about us always and still arguing over those same things.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I implore you to be more honest and upfront with me so that we can minimise the guessing and assumptions that sometimes, go in such wrong directions which ruin any good moods we might have to start with.
How can you say, and think that I am only thinking of myself, after 4 years of me trying to make myself be known to you.
Sometimes, your defense for your disappointment and mood swings hurt more than an attack.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I make space on my desk for a Bible and when attending mass is taking up permanent residence in my weekend schedule.
How can I be only thinking of myself when, after thinking and planning, I suggested to resume our joint-savings to minimise undue money-related stress if we even want or plan to take the next step.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I take up employment and compromise on flexibility, so that the income stability would contribute more consistently to saving up for us.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I need to find out beforehand where my family is going to have breakfast and estimate if that might pose delays to your schedule, before deciding if we would join them.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I consider carefully if it might be indeed convenient for you to join in gatherings with my extended family, even before conveying the invitation to you.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I read reviews after reviews of the possible dining places for the people you also hold dear, just so it's almost as good as anyone could expect.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I always try to hold my negative words and not take the easy way out, even when I feel so very misunderstood and hopeless about us always and still arguing over those same things.
How can I be only thinking of myself when I implore you to be more honest and upfront with me so that we can minimise the guessing and assumptions that sometimes, go in such wrong directions which ruin any good moods we might have to start with.
How can you say, and think that I am only thinking of myself, after 4 years of me trying to make myself be known to you.
Sometimes, your defense for your disappointment and mood swings hurt more than an attack.
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